I'm so very tired of this life, once Mum is no longer here, I don't see anything to keep me here either.. I'm just so fucking lonely, so fucking tired of authority arseholes, so tired of the way the world has gone, so fearful of my own future here, so sick of the hate & the spite, the malice that enjoys the pain of others, I will be glad to leave this rotten world of pain & heartache..
I'm sorry Jesus, I just don't think I can make it thru the rest of this permanent, daily, weekly,monthly, yearly, pain & torture.. Please forgive me.. 😓
Saturday, late afternoon, the remanants of a cup of coffee have gone cold, the fire is warm, making the room seem cosier than it would otherwise be. The rain is intermittent, but a downpour is sure to come. Got a stinker of a cold, so informed Deacon that unfortunately, I won't be attending service tomorrow.
Going to have a nice hot meal, of roast beef, potatoes, carrots, onions, garlic & herbs, with a side of steamed savoy cabbage, done over the pan of pot's.
I think a hot bath and early bed, are definitely on the cards for tonight, I'll read until I can't, then I'll put out the light & go to sleep. I've got cocoa, so a big mug of steaming hot cocoa beteween exiting the bath & going to bed, will be a nice way to end the evening.
I hope you are well & remembering to live, as well as being the worker/fixer/boss/co-owner/whatever. We must be mindful of the welfare of others, at all times, at all times except when we need to put ourselves first, temporarily, when it's time to recharge ...
