I'd love to go on a long holiday, to my own past & really, I would not come back to this time, if I could escape into a point in my past, of my own choosing.
The fantasy would be complete as a kind of groundhog-day, without the knowledge of it of course. The Matrix-like forever-in-the-past fantasy, is so much more appealing than this unshakeable feeling of dread that I get from visions of the future.
Life was supposed to get better as I got older, it hasn't, quite the reverse.
I recently experienced difficulties making payments to Rubin Report, so they've locked me out of my supporter status, I used the "contact us" to send them messages about this, hoping they'd sort it out for me while awaiting payment. I've been with RR since 2020, so I assumed they'd sort it out, they have not responded & although payment has now been made, my status has not changed back, to say I'm disappointed is a huge understatement.
